Last week I attended the Doxology & Theology conference in Louisville. A real highlight for me was eating pizza with Harold Best. His book Music Through the Eyes of Faith remains one of the most thought-provoking books I’ve read on music in worship.
During dinner, we were happy to listen to the wisdom, stories, and so many jokes from this 83 year old saint. We laughed a lot. But I can’t quite shake one thing Harold said:
Most of my career as Dean at Wheaton College, I thought I wanted to be a college president. And that’s really the truth of it. I wanted to be a college president, but I didn’t want to do what a college president does. And so I put that question to all of you young men at this conference. Do you want to be worship leaders? Or do you want to do what worship leaders do? One is about your ego, the other will bring you deep satisfaction.
As a (God-willing!) soon to be seminary graduate, that question haunts me. Do I want to be pastor, have a title, achieve an office? Or do I want to do the good, hard work of serving people? If I’m honest, most days its a combination of both.
May I be more like Jesus, who cared more about his work than his status:
Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, because he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father. (Phil 2:5-11)